Its really a scary feeling with a side dish of the lost feeling and for pudding a vomit feeling. Yesterday I was blessed, today I am walking away. I think where he broke my walls in the begining was when he not ones, but twice used his hand to wipe the tears from my cheek when I had a bad day in the short 4 month that we were together. But one or two amazing things he can do is not enough to chase all the bad things just waiting to break through and break my heart. I can do this, I can just press the switch and turn it off. Tomorrow I will be oky.